Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Things on my Mind...

First thing first, graduation exam!
that's coming up in exactly a month, 29th of April.
Hopefully, I'll have no difficulties.
then I have the actual graduation to deal with.
(which is the easier part.)

And I need to get this teaching straightened out and running smoothly.

But what's really on my mind is book club.
I really want to make one. But right now I have no idea where to start.
Who to contact and what to do.
I know I won't be able to really run or get the club going until after I graduate.
but then again, I feel the urge to start now so I'll have decent amount of people to gather once I do have the time to start.
Anyways, so making a book club and gathering people for it has been something that's been on my mind ever since the end of last year.

I do know someone who's in a book club, and I thought of joining his..
but then, I only know him and not the rest and they've been doing it for ages.
(though, meeting new people wont be bad..)
feels like I'll be intruding. So that's been out of the question.
Plus, they meet too far away from my place.

I need to figure this out.. sooner than later.
Hopefully, I'll have a book club running by the end of this year.

little brats

okay, that might be a bit too strong a word but then again they are brats! ;)
So I now have one group of four nine-year-old boys and another group of 3 niney-year-old girls. Sometimes adorable but most of the times just pain in the butt!!
Don't get me wrong I DO love to teach these brats but I just get worn out, that's all.
I'll probably have more groups to teach starting this summer but for now.
It's just these two and a junior high kid who does not know how to read English.
He's in his teen and has no idea whatsoever of what he's doing.
and at the same time he doesn't really seem to care he can't read.
Though, I sincerely wish that deep in his heart he does.
So I need to figure out how to get him interested.
And right now, well, I just can't think of any.
I guess I don't really know him well enough to hit the right botton to get him motivated.
Hopefully, I'll find it soon.
Tomorrow will be my fifth class with him.
Wish me Luck!!

Tuesday, March 29, 2005


As some may have known and some may not.
It was Easter the past weekend.
Somewhat going-back-to-the-childhood Easter weekend for me.
Yes, it was tiring with the flu and all, but also, it reminded me of the Easter we used to have.
with all the egg colouring, decorating, and hunting.
and of course.. the EASTER BUNNY!!!

we didn't have the hunting and the bunny but it was fun all the same.
mom, sis and me and all the other people from church came over
and started decorating about 200 eggs.
It is a lot, isn't it?
well, I didn't draw much but coloured.
I'm not much of a painter but I know how to fill in spaces with colours.^^;;
well, that's what I did and I did get tired after 10 eggs, I think.
though I think Aram did about 50 of those.
Oh, that reminds me, I should post some of the pictures.

Monday, March 28, 2005

the evil illness with no direct cure

Well, I guess there are several that I could name..
that defines as an evil illness with no direct cure
However, I am talking about this FLU I got.
Now, don't ask me where I got it.
How should I know. I guess it's that time of the season where you just get it.
My heads spinning and I can't think straight.. though I don't think people actually do think straight.. or do they?
And I have that nauseous feeling like I'm going to throw up any minute, though thankfully that has past. I can't eat, well, I can but, can't really taste what I'm eating. So, I wouldn't really know if it really tasted bad.
My throught is so sore that it's hard for me to swallow anything.
Okay, okay, I'm making a big fuss about a tiny flu.
But it does feel awfull.
I hope I'll get over it soon.
And I also hope none of you have to suffer the same kind of flu I'm suffering.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Solitude.. in other words... Isolation!

Well, let's just say, after a long~ and what seemed like an everlasting solitude, in other words cocooning myself up and trying to keep everyone I know out of it - shutting myself completely down - I guess I got myself totally isolated from the world and the people I love and care for.

But then again, knowing me I guess the whole half of last year was my absolute break down period. And in a sense I think I did need that percise period to get over all the pressure and all the bad accidents that happened to me.

So, what's the matter? well, right now, I'm just happy that I'm regaining myself.

What happened during the times I did not write here, and why not write?
(I do ask that myself...)
I should have tried to just let it out and then let it work the rest.
And I know writing has been a good medicine for me.

I guess I was just tired of everything.

Isn't it funny when how everything seems to be so perfect and so good, it just hits you on the head and WHAM! you're just in a slump and everything just comes tumbling down on you?
Half of last year was exactly that.
Just when I was having a great time after the trip to Europe..
Trying to adjust to school life and ease down on the excitement.
I had the biggest disagreement with one of my professor and he wasn't helping much.

Then, I got into a car accident in November (I think it was November or was it end of October?).
To be exact, I hit an eighty-something year-old lady while I was backing out of my parking spot.
The funny thing is that I was paying more attention than I usually do.
The shock and fear, I don't think I could ever explain it.
I can still see her lying there.
and the blood.. damn the blood..
I think that's what frightened me the most.
Seeing her lying there and blood oozing out from the side of her temple...
Fortunately and thankfully she's out of the intensive care and doing okay.

And I've been doing okay since this year started..
and getting better..
Hopefully this year won't be as dramatic as the last.