Saturday, April 16, 2005

small dreams, big dreams...

Well, I think they started big for me.. and kind of diminished along the way.
And I think, it's getting a bit bigger and bigger..
or lets just say I'm building on it.

I had plans, so many plans and spent so many time planning it.
But seeing it scatter into small pieces just in one incident...
in only a matter of seconds..
I think I stopped planning then.
and I think that's when my dreams started shrinking..

and at one point in some sense
I had no dream left. I had nothing.
I don't think I realized it right away that I had no dreams.
I think it took awhile. I don't know how long.
But it did take some time...
for me to realize that there was something wrong.

Maybe I had too much thought in my head and at one point it went blank.

But now I think I've made my turning point again.
I think I've made the right turn again..
and heading towards the right direction.

Who knows?
I might make a wrong turn again..
or something might happen along the way..
but I know I'll always find the right path..
how long it may take..
I know I'll find it.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

7th day of April

23 Days left till the end of April.
And I have less than a month to study for my grad. exam.
I'm totally wiped out.
Today was one of my crazy day of the week.
Anyways, this kid I'm teaching is driving me nuts!
I really would like to see what's going on in his mind.
It seems that he's only interested in meeting friends.
Now, I don't really have a problem with that.
Normally I wouldn't cus I love my friends, too.
But with him, it's like the only thing that interests him are his friends or the church.
Okay, that's not it. I don't really think it's the church or his friends.
I think it's got more to do with the 'event' of being with friends, and hanging out.
He has no interest in school work (Not that I'd see it as a problem normally cus I didn't either at his age, but I did my work. He doesn't!)
I just need to figure out how to get to him.
And I still can't grasp it.

I'm starting a lecture tomorrow at a company.
'Beginning English Conversation' sounds like fun, only thing is that I need to wake up early =p
I'm pretty excited in starting that class.
Hopefully, I won't have to deal with another one of this kid, since they're all grown ups.=)