day by day

seconds... minutes... hours...
days... weeks... months... years...
just goes on and on like clock work.
I guess it's doing it's job properly.

Then I look at myself and wonder if I'm doing things
the way I'm supposed to.. whatever that may be....

Though these days..
I'm starting to think that things are somewhat turning out okay.
Compared to last year's total disaster and just endless bad luck..
I'd say I'm doing pretty good, if not absolutely perfect!

So August it is...

Five more months and it'll be 2006!
My.. my...
So, I guess I'm still on the verge of figuring out what to do.
Should I keep walking the path of teaching?
Or just go totally change paths and go somewhere else?
I mean I don't hate teaching.
It's just that it gets SO tiresome after awhile...
But then again.. it's fun all over again.
I guess it'll probably be the same what ever you end up doing.
I feel like I want to study more..
but then I ask myself 'for what?'
And I can't really think of an answer to that either.
Trying to figure out things, I guess, has been what I've been doing the past couple of years.
Trying to figure out what I'm really good at, what I like.
And trying to figure out where I'm coming from and where I'm headed.
Then again, the quest to all this is what life is all about, right?

I started teaching at another corporate company today.
So, that makes two for now.
Hopefully, it'll increase (SOON!)
Anyways, I feel like I've been shutting myself out from things for a long time..
and trying to block things from going out and coming in.
Maybe that has changed a bit.
Maybe I am going through another phase.. a good one hopefully..

It can't be worse than now.. things can't go any worse than now... it just can't!